Useless’s world

aiyo…

so annoyed le…

y le…

i wanna know my result…

wad class i in next year..

i dunno…

wtf…

i shuld go to skul that day..

dissappointed…

wadever..

already past..

i think i can go in the first class next year.. i think..

hopefully..

juz read back my blog…

saw one of them..

the blog is abot something that i had promised myself..

i swear i will make myself happy..

bt,,unfortunately..

i din fulfill wad i had promised..

y???

bcuz i m USeless… this is wad i always call myself la,,

these few days nothing to do in school..

finish exam bt haven finish peka…

wad type of teacher is that la..

now onli let us do our PEKA..

make me cannot ponteng.. i mean muz go to skul.. i m a GOOD boy..

haha..

so funny..

juz say i m useless now say i m good..

wad m i doin now..

craping…

cham lol..

nothing to do ma..

busying about my society stuff.

finally i get post in C.L.U.. Vice president..

quite high post..

my brother get President again…

haiz..

actually i din feel disappointed..

cuz i know i cant get since my brother come in V.I n study here again…

i never regret wad i have done to V.I.C.L.U.. eventhough i cant get president..

anyhow..

i will still go on n fight for the best.. somemore.. this is the first time president n v.president r siblings..

the first history.. wow.. proud gila..

today i got my results..

i very sad.. cant i cant get A1 for english… i know that actually cuz my english not as good as u think.. even there are a lot grammar mistake in this blog..

bt quite happy for my biology n physics results… both get A1..

biology get 87 (second highest in the whole form, lost to Isaac by 1 mark. really tak puas hati.) n physics 85.. 

never mind.. i will keep on fighting for the best..

cuz i know even i m useless, bt i still have to live in this world for a long long time..

i muz study smart study hard…

back again…

juz finish AGM and farewell….

i miss it so much…

07/08 CLU committee is going to seperate…

i feel sad…

however, i have to face it bravely..

i muz accept tis reality…

tomolo peng’s birthday..

how!!!!!!!!

i dun want to lose ur all…

we r one big family…

i will not forget u all….

u all will always in my heart…

V.I.C.L.U 07/08…..

all the comittee…

i love u all ya…..

muackz……

我对这世界已产生了无数的恐惧和害怕。

友情？？真的那么脆弱吗？？

我真害怕。。不是因为你们与我分离。。

而是为了我，搞得大家的心不安。。

这也使我不敢对你们发问这个问题。。

或许是我不想失去你们吧。

life is always wonderful n fun..

but for me..

i feel that life is actually a task given by God to all of us..

is a hard task that normal mankind cannot pass through..

i dun have that patient to settle this complicated relationship between me n all of u..

hope that there will be a way to settle this problem..

anyhow, i have to settle this to make me escape from this meaningless n fun-less life..

somehow, even there r no way bt i still have to face it…

what can i do.. to compensate wad i had done wrongly in my life..

i want a perfect n wonderful life..

i don’t mean that i dun believe in god..

juz because i never see it so i cant prove that it is true..

bt,

wad else can i do??

is nothing…

mayb there are something that waiting for me.. juz i dun realize…

how can i find it..

by searching it myself??

no way.. i m not that free…

i need to prepare for my exam..

THIS YEAR IS NOT HONEYMOON YEAR..

this sentence will always appear in my brain..

laziness is my weakness..

Once i feel lazy i will stop every urgent things n keep doing wad i wanna do..

n at the same time..

my brain will appear a sentence

I DUN CARE

haiz…..

aiyo..

wad m i talking about actually..

dunno… even i oso dunno wad m i talking about..

Dont u????

haiz…

i will read my blog after i finish this blog..

bt i wont change anything although i know there are a lot of grammar mistake..

I DUN CARE

my english level nt as high as YOU (i mean who is reading my blog)….

sorry.. hehe..

so.. dun blame me if u really dun understand…

ok la..

hand tired ady..

have to take a rest…

bye… see YOU next time..

 if i got time.. cuz..

THIS YEAR IS NOT HONEYMOON YEAR..

haha (i know it is not funny.. bt i like la.. my wish la…)…

bye..

Finally.. i m back..

bt still remain the same..

everything goes on,

and my heart become pain n pain day by day…

feel suffering..

feel sad..

wanna say sumthing bt feel like dun wanna tell anyone..

juz feel annoyed..

live in my meaningless life without any suprise n happiness…

wad can i do..

i really hope that ‘you’ will come to me again..

bt..

is impossible..

i always tell myself that ‘everything is possible’

bt.. i cant lie to myself n everyone now..

i think i should give up on u..

i will not feel sad anymore..

because i already learned to put down my stress..

i will not let myself sad again..

i wanna make my life perfect n wonderful..

this my wish..

n my friends…..

‘YOU’ la…

thx for accompany me for so long..

i felt a bit happy after i told u everything..

although it is really hurt..

anyway.. thx..

thx for eveything.. tuition n that thing..

so..

from now on..

i will only make myself happy..

i swear..

i swear…

i swear….

no mood to type blog.. sad.. disappointed… meaningless..

ntg can do…

no one understand me..

i juz feel stress, under pressure..

feel boring to anything, everything…

feel strange to anyone, everyone…

feel stress in any condition, every condition…

no matter in skul, at home…

juz feel speechless for my meaningless life…

bye.. i think i will not write blog for many days…

so wait for me lol..

til i feel happy n

find out life actually is wonderful..

today…. feel a bit bored… not as bored as yesterday.. bt still bored la…

y?? bcuz no one find me n i din find anyone.. thats y  la.. is my fault la..

at 5 sumthing, pei ling called me…

y??? bcuz i want her to call me lol..

she such a xiao mei mei.. really listen to my order.. really call me..

bt i very appreciate her… juz bcuz of her call.. i bacum more happy n not so boring..

at least i chat wif someone today… hehe..

we chat about 23 minutes…. i m very happy bt she cham lol..

cuz she called me one wad.. later scold by her parents den not very good lol…

hehe…

to my DEAREST pei ling…

if u really get scold by ur parents come n find me again la.. chat wif u again.. haha.. make u happy back ma.. hehe…

hmm.. tomorrow have to go for the dinner lol..

performance..

haven memorise the lyrics yet…

wad can i do.. i dun even know how to sing sejahtera malaysia le…

victoria centenary really nice.. i like it so much…

cuz…

i m victorian… bt nt a malaysian… (muz sing it onli nice.. bt onli i know how to sing..) hehe

lazy to memorise it la,

wad shuld i do…

if u r here beside me, sure u will help me.. rite????

today….. skip the celebration of national day in my skul..

flying in some place… that onli my best frens know.. =.=’

luckily no one saw us..’my fren skip the thing wif me oso’

bt u guys dun think i m a bad boy after read this blog wor…

juz feel ntg to do in the hall better stay in somewhere else…

after that i went for chinses society meeting…

my brother.. the president of the mooncake dedication activity..

he damn angry today wei.. luckily i din do anything wrong… so he din scold me… jz scolded those who never did well in their own jobs…

like~~~~ hehe.. dun want tell la.. later they come my class n kill me..

hmm…

quite happy… bt life is nt perfect..

in my life,, sadness sure will come to me everyday..

when i juz reached home from skul.. after i finish my lunch n bathing.. not even one hour…

my mum already ask me to go out wif her to do things,…

wad.. i damn tired le..

no choice.. she is my mum.. i muz listen to her order..

if not, wad else i can do.. reject her???? siao…

better dun do that…. i have to go genting in october de le…

although she already promise me.. bt if i have done something wrong.. den i muz cancel everything that i already plan…

scare lol… haiz…

n U, i know u wont reload for ur phone… bt after u change ur phone number.. can u please tell me immediately??? hmmm…

waiting for u all.. i will nvr let u all go…

once my fren, forever eng leong’s fren……

haiz..

boring again..

choir practise today… the president of choir ask us..R u going for the GALA DINNER performance.. tell me now…

i already asked my mum yesterday..

my mum said can…

bt i have to go home earlier on that daY…

suddenly, she said skul onli keep fourteen seats for us.. what the hell..

then wad for u ask us to give u answer for that thing.. today u wanna kicked some gals out…

is a cruel action….

they already comfirmed to u that they can attend for the thing…

haiz….

haiz… wad else i can do..

feel bored everyday, if u already reload… find me la.. i really boring la…

i need u all to chat wif me la… boring …BORING>….

>.<… =.=

now already 9.30..

feel boring for the whole ady…

a meaningless life for me…

a meaningless day for me..

a meaningless hour for me…

everyday keep doing the same thing..

post some comments on others profile…

hate somebody.. y he so nonsence, so annoying…

dun want talk about him anymore.. juz forget him…

haiz..

boring

y i feel bored today???

where all my happiness…all gone???

today i got my englsih paper…

very happy

the first time i get A1-86%

EST oso… 86%

bt.. when i reached home all happiness gone.. because of someone.

thinking of someone..

trying to forget about it bt cant…

i want bt i cant… what the.. omg..

tiring… rest-less today…

choir practise, young enterprise.. chinese society..

whole day doing these stuff…

keep asking myselfwhy why why why why.

why so boring today… y so blur today..

missing someone…

missing u guys… i miss u all…

where u all..

theen meng, sorry..

y u become so cool for these days…

our relationship become bad n bad day by day…

i really miss u guys,..

theen meng, yee xuan, gaka, wei inn, sum yee, pei ling, ying xin, wei yan n many many more la…

7 mintues gone…

still typing this blog..

many things i wanna express here..

my feeling

happiness n sadness i went through today

what else..

cant remember cuz quite lot.. hehe..

first is about my feeling..

today i felt happy today because of my results..

i was suprised today.. essay wei.. get A1.. hehe.. first time..

n i saw ur comment… bt i miss the time when u on9..

what r u doing now… i wanna know…

too bad,..

happiness…

almost the same.. my results, ur comment.. n choir…

this saturday my skul is going to organize an annual dinner called ‘Gala dinner’..

i need to perform on that day.. at KL tower…

is a good new.. although that day i have to stay til vey late…

besides…

around 8 o clock.

one of my Sri petaling fren sms me… n ask me a funny question..

yy… y u so clever one..

i feel shocking at that moment..

since when i tell u i m clever.. i m stupid.. i m useless..

ike what yan jun said.. i really ‘mo yong’ la…

dun said i m clever anymore ok??

haiz…

sadness..

young enterprise… the only club that can make me feel annoying..

the report… is really messy..

the account oso.. where the another RM250..

find it la.. who took it.. is it really wif yie der..

today, a rest-less day.. a tiring n meaningless day..

what can i do for my life to make it perfect…

i always call myslef useless..

i m really useless, i dun even know y i call myself useless..

den

that is useless la..

useless guy typing useless blog..

no one can understand…

can someone please tell me why…

why i m so useless.. y m i so stupid..